Saturday, November 06, 2004
revival

didnt feel like putting this blog to waste after arlene set it up for us.
though my eyes are starry and blurry, i really hope all sia-sianz ll help to revive this place, to make it more a more interactive for us. i did quite alot of changes, which includes a change of blogskin, an addition of tag board, links to wac members and a modification to the original settings. hope u guys dun mind tt i linked u! so, lets start the ball rolling! :D

seriously speaking, i prefer the blogskin arlene chose, but i came upon this one and it had a lot of meaning. kinda our common goal? anyway, to the sia-sianz,feel free to change ANYTHING u want cos this is our blog. pls, dun let it go to waste again after what we've done. pleaseeeeee....

apart from that, im really glad tt my doubts were cleared today. all along, i had the misconception that baptism in the Holy Spirit meant receiving tongues. thats what i believed till today. i rem, around last yr, i was a memb of a cell set up by my sec sch fren. shes from acharismatic (is tt how u spell it? x_x) church and together with her church frens, we gathered almost every friday do what a cell normally does. there was once, they spent hours praying over me to be 'baptised by the Holy Spirit', that means to receive the gift of tongues. at tt time, i didnt know that the day i received Christ,i've already received the Holy Spirit, so i was really disapppointed and upset that nothing came out of the prayers. i was expecting myself to receive tongues or something. it didnt help tt my ex could actually speak a little (according to him, tt is)

today, i know tt receiving the Holy Spirit does not equilvalent to receiving tongues.

i should actually feel ashamed, cos after being a Christian ALL my life, this was all i knew. my foundation is so weak, and theres still many lingering doubts in my head about so many things. sometimes, u just dunno who to turn to. some believers who actually accepted Christ for a few years had such a high level of maturity. mine seems to be like that of an infant. sigh...

something is amiss. but where do i begin?
lack of faith?
legalism?

i guess its probably a combination of all. i suppose before i can dream big dreams, i need to get my foundation right and firm.

may God guide us all.

wishlist for now: a massage on my aching back! heh! :D


janice fishing at 4:20 AM
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