Tuesday, January 11, 2005
all glory to God

hi.. i wanted to share this a long time ago. but my com broke down and i didnt really have the opportunity.

as your know, i was in charge of games for the last youth camp. although it wasnt my first time handling games, it was my first biggest 'project' yet. Sabrina once told me :' why do you worry so much? why do you think until so complicated. you just give them a game and they will be happy. thats what i did with the children at their camp.' ya.. its true. howeve, im more than clear that while children are easier satisfied, children at our age group would expect more, especially when they attended better camps in the past, they would surely expect more the next time round. it was a very enormous challenge to me. i had no experience and not much great ideas. i guess if ivy wasnt there to facilitate, i wouldnt even know how to hold a meeting.

throughout the planning stage, we procrastinated and we only started officially in november. i think the leaders nearly fainted. im thankful the camp wasnt in the middle of the year because it ll be a wonder if i can even survive balancing my school work with the games. beacuse we started late, and i was a bad leader, the last few weeks towards the camp, the games comm had to rush and have many meetings and my mind was all about games, games, and nothing but games. my computer broke down at the most inappropriate time and our telematch was only finalised two days before the camp.

because my computer broke down, i had to stay over at eunice's house to type out everything and get things done. and agin, because it was a last minute decision to do so, i had the same clothings for three days. not to say, my body clock was turned topsy turvey.

i suppose beacuse of my inefficiency, i caused ivy inconvenience, made rachel stay up with me till 5am and made bother chee hoong and sister huiling to buy our stuffs for us.
tina warned me beforehand that i must get everything done by the camp if not there wouldnt be enough time for me to do anything.

and true anough, on the first day, as im part of the advance team, i was still preparing for the games just befor the youths arrive. the rest of the advance team(rachel, edward, arlene and sis huiling) had to help me too. we were so caught up with doing that, that when the youths arrived, i was unprepared for the icebreakers. the rain made the games indoor too. for the rest of the games, i had to do last minute preparation which resulted in rachel and i spending 1% of the total time with our group. i wrote my first card to my mortal on the second day and in total was only two.on the second night, the games comm had to suffer with me preparing till 5am. im truly and sincerely sorry.

althought there were so many hiccups due to my inefficincy, many things turned out well with the grace of God. we had a great time fellowshipping during our games meeting, 'evily' gleeful thinking of all the yucky food for the peanuts game, having a grea time taking pictures of the murderer game. i guess this was the time i spent most with rachel. and although timothy couldnt make it to the camp at the very last minute, his game had impacted us so much, we enojoyed ouselves so much and we agreed it was the best game,isnt it?and because of this gme, it gave the gourps opportunity to bond. see... timmy boy.. even though u are not physically there, your contributions are felt by us and seen by God. it couldnt have worked out that well without you.

on the first night, we were supposed to have our peanut game. but it rained so heavily that we had to be flexible. i was so worried i thought about the suggestion althea gave to modify the game. but leave all worries to God, beacuse He got a plan in mind, ya?? :D

so... although rachel casually asked whether we are gonna reenact, we started to get excited. and at the very last minute, we had all our cast ready and going, and i was given the most challenging job to announce a fake game so that joanie could faint at the end of the hall to create a commotion to start off the murderer game. while i was up there, i was so nervous and totally excited at how our last minute plan can carry out, i was shaking from head to toe. my hear was beating so hard, i could imagine it popping out any moment. it was like having heart attack. oh my goodness, just thinking of that memorable night can make me so excited. i thought it was a rather good start, although i dunno who stamped his foot so loudly. hahah.. i was so afraid im going to just smile and start laughing my head off. everyone was staring at that direction, and the games comm started to go crazy to start a commotion. my only suprise was my miscalculation that many people would rush to joanie. everyone but sier and shuhei and valarie rushed over. ther were saying valerie wanted to push everyone away to give jaonie more air, sier looked very worried and was about to carry joanie on his own to the dorm and shuhei got stopped just in time by edward before he reached jaonie. but it was such a pity some attentive people saw throught the prank when sis huiling n bro chee hoong just sat or stood there oblivious to what was happening. and tina was laughing! (we warned her beforehand) wow.. it was a total success. after everthing, everyone just left the room looking very affected and blurred out. i was just worried they may feel cheated. it was so cooool. i think if this happen a second time, im gonna have a heart attack. too bad, i felt the prank ended to abruptly after sab read out the plot above the light. hee.. but thank God for the rain. truely thank God. it was a great start.

then while cutting the yucky food, we had tina, rachel and becky helping out to cut them and we all smelled of coriander and garlic. and tina probably smelled of lemon. haha.. i was so thankful jonathan kee turned up just as we were about to set off to the park. i wouldnt know how to manage if he wasnt there. we had soooooo many things to carry there. and if her wasnt there, rachel and i would be walking along the dark road with who-knows-what or who on our own. then the one thing that got me so mad was that the light sticks that were hidden got stolen by people. although my mind had alot of things to scold, i understand that it was no fault of theirs. we had to collect them back and konathan hid them within a boundary. it was great.

then after we finshed our last job of transporting the items back to church, we had a great time watching and sleeping in the cinema while watching 'national treasure'. hahaha...

generally, amidst the hiccups and my inefficency, i felt a tremendous sense of satisfaction that nothing else can give. i do not know whether the rest of them felt anything, but i felt like it was all worth it, even though we stayed up late, did last minute preparations, and had accidents happening. it was like serving God was the only thing that can make me so happy. at the end of the day, i was so happy. more happy than i was physically tired. i suppose no words can describe. i felt better than scoring first on a test or exam or when you did a great job in a project or being a sectional leader. i was so gals i was given this opportunity to serve God in this area. im ready to do more. because i know that God is with me even though i may not be good enough in the eyes of men. because i know that what im doing isnt for men, but ultimately to serve and please God. i can imagine Him smiling down at me. wow...... that feeling is just incredibly comforting and exciting. it felt like i didnt wanna stop there. i told God that i would like to serve Him more. and this year, im given roles i know i ll have difficulty handling, but i wanna do it. for God. i wann learn to rely on His everlasting strength and be faithful. i do not want to be the same old spiritually immature me. its like, i wont mind stopping my studies to serve Him. i pray that this fire would not die down but continue to blaze amazingly bright.

this is what i felt and this is my testimony. theres more, but i guess i've been rather long-winded, so i shall spare all. :)

heres a big thank you for the people who had been of great help and been patient with me.

rachel - for being there together with me in the late nights and the last minute plannings.
ivy - for being there together, helping to facilitate and your advices and being patient with me
timothy- for the great plot, clues and ideas and your desire to serve.
edward - for your advices, your assistance in running the games
arlene-for being patient with me and for helping us with the games.
joanie - for your willingness to help us even at the last minute and your contributions
bro chee hoong and sis huiling- for believing in me that the games would be fun and for helping us buy the stuffs(it was the best items) the lunches, macs, and the drive to and fro.
jonathan kee - for popping up at the right time and your willingness to give us a helping hand.
tina - for ur advices and helping us squeeze the lemon
becky-for helping us cut the garlic(or ginger??)
sabrina-for helping us with reenacting the story and your laptop and not peeping at the games. (hahahha..)
candice-for helping us with reenating the story and the pics
regi-for helping us with reenacting the story
quifeng-for helping me buy stuffs at the very last minute
jonathan leow - for helping me with the nitty gritties
althea - for your great games suggestions
sier-with your willingness to allow us to use your car
logistic pple-for helping us carry the heavy stuffs and a great time sleeping in the cinama while watching 'national treasure'.
zhongfa-for that dinner treat :)
eunice-for disturbing you and disturbing me with your stupid 'banyan tree joke' (hahaha..)
uncle jimmy and family-for the nice hospitality and ah ma's food!
campers - for your enthusiasm and for bringing a smile to our faces


and for any others i have missed out. as i try to recall, i ll add them in. in any way, it's a big thankyou for everything. couldnt have done it without all, isnt it true?? :)

all things worked out well under God's guidance,plan and blessing.
ALL GLORY TO GOD....


janice fishing at 5:01 PM
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